“I’ll be right back,” I told Nurit and released her hand. “I need to go to the bathroom.” I whispered.
“Can you find it by yourself?” She knew the area. She spoke the language, and knew how much I feared the dark.
“No problem” I boasted, “I’m a big boy!” Big mistake. Big boys make big mistakes. The bigger the boy, the bigger the mistake.
Flickering lights illuminated the dark alley toward the bathroom. Are they supposed to flash? I wondered. What if the lights go out? Is there another way out? Not knowing scared me.
The lights went out!
For the thing that I fear comes upon me, and what I dread befalls me.
Lights emerged from the darkness. I was relieved, at first. But the lights were not friendly. They concealed darkness. Dark creatures stalked me from beyond the lights. The lights flashed warnings. Shall I turn back? I asked myself?
The total absence of reflected light is scary enough, but a small light in a big darkness can be even more terrifying if its source is unknown.
I heard the Word.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
I kept stepping. I heard the crackle and felt the crunch under my feet. What is that?! I wondered without looking down.
I fixed my sight with all my might straight ahead; not even a little to the left nor to the right. I was being stalked. Someone, or something, was stalking me. Am I to be another’s meal? I thought.
I had a plan yesterday. It was a good plan, as far as human plans went. But what did I know?
Having a plan gave me a feeling of knowing and control. When my plan failed I became frustrated. Then I was frightened! I feared the unknown almost as much as I feared Bohu.
Do not fear, only believe.
His Word filled me with confidence. I believed Him. I took another step forward into the unknown.
I rounded a corner and came upon two doors. Their markings were colorful but their meaning was unknown to me. Which door shall I take?! I puzzled. I liked the pink but I felt the blue. I decided.
I pushed. It opened. It was not what I expected. Why I asked myself, do I doubt Him? He was already there!
We spent a moment in eternity. I felt felt better when I saw Him. My faith had turned to sight, if only for a moment. It was enough.
How will I tell this story? I worried. Who will believe me? I decided to tell the story. Maybe another human like me who feared the unknown’s darkness will believe the One I believed.
Rx: Job 3:25, Psalm 23:4, and Mark 5:36B